Tuesday, March 6, 2018

The Best Trends at Paris Fashion Week

I'll be honest - Paris didn't really wow me this season. 

The week started off with a few awkward transitions in creative direction, resulting in collections that were a bit all over the place. However, classics like Miu Miu, Chanel and Stella McCartney brought us back to where we needed to be: dripping in the royal purple, leather, feminine and sexy emerald-y wonderland that is Fall/Winter 2018 (You heard it here first: Emerald is THE color of the season).

As usual, I picked apart each runway presentation and gathered all of my favorite runway trends. Although Paris was the least impressive week in my book, there were still some looks served:

1. Velvet

Fashion Month spent time paying tribute to the nineties this season, but no one did quite like our Parisian designers. Velvet has come and go since the nineties in all forms: as booties, chokers and crop tops. This fall encourages going head-to-toe in the soft, sleek material.

Versus Versace


Talbot Runhof

2. Plaid

Further proof that Paris was inspired by the nineties this season. Plaid makes you think of winter, scholarliness and warmth.

Christian Dior



3. Multi-fabric

Many collections experimented with using more than one fabric per garment in an obvious, almost exaggerated way. This is either next-level or catastrophic.



Louis Vuitton

4. All White

The only color combination to incite anxiety all day long for the wearer, that still doesn't take away from the fact that it makes you look damn good. Pack a stick of Tide-to-Go and enjoy all the attention your outfit gets.

Valentin Yudashkin

Ralph & Russo


5. LBD

Quite the opposite effect of the purity and officialness that comes with wearing all white is the mystery that comes along with the provocative little black dress, something we need in our closets year-round, forever, until the end of time.


Saint Laurent

Alexandre Vaulthier

6. Leather

For the days we want to feel like bad asses. (We all have them).

Yang Li


Haider Ackermann

7. Legs

Because showing what God gave you is a look in itself.


Sonia Rykiel

Isabel Marant

8. Bright blue

Although emerald and royal purple dominated the runways this month, that didn't stop byzantine blue from being a huge hit.


Andreas Kronthaler for Vivienne Westwood

Alexis Mabille

9. Chokers

Remember how these came back for like, a week last year? They weren't going away so fast.

Versus Versace

Christian Dior


10. Sunglasses

The right pair can complete any look.
Elie Saab

Dries van Noten


Agree? Disagree? Let me know.



Sunday, March 4, 2018

My One Year Ana-versary

One year ago today, I was the slightest bit willing. The slightest bit. The rest of me was still in denial.

One year ago, I couldn’t stand for very long without feeling sharp pain in my knees. I couldn’t lift a case of water. I couldn’t stay awake past 9 p.m. because I was often delirious with hunger by dinner time (which I barely ate).

I couldn’t cry because I didn’t feel any emotions. I didn’t have many friends and I noticed people actively begin to dislike or avoid me because of how mean I’d become. I only left my room when absolutely necessary. I pulled the skin on my arms, legs and stomach all day, every day, furious with how “disgusting” and “fat” I was.

The hair on my head was the thinnest it’s ever been. On the contrary, I had extra hair growing all over to compensate for my lack of body fat. My wrists were the size of a small child. My greatest form of exercise was swimming—in all of my clothes (which were never bigger than size 00).  Oh, except I still went to the gym seven days a week, minimum three hours a day.

One year ago, my family didn’t know what to do anymore. They were scared but I was furious. Furious every time they tried to talk to me, furious every time they tried to feed me, until eventually everyone just stayed quiet and let me starve in infuriated peace.

One year ago today, I decided to become the slightest bit willing.

Today I stand on two big legs—legs I got from my mother. They’re thick and strong; they get me where I need to go without pain or injury. My feet are two sizes bigger (or rather, back to their actual size). My wrists are no longer tiny and dainty—they’re sturdy. They don’t make me nervous.

In fact, no part of my body makes me nervous anymore. I’m not afraid if I brush my hair too much it will fall out—now when I brush it, it grows in abundance, shiny. I can sit on any surface no matter how hard, because my ass is officially phat enough to handle it.

Today I go out with friends because I have the energy to do so. I’m also nice enough to make friends in the first place. Today I try new foods, go to parties. I get through the day without obsessing over food. It is, slowly but surely, not that important anymore.

Don’t be fooled—it still isn’t easy. Don’t think because I’ve gained the weight back and am living a much happier life that I’m over anorexia. It still lives in my head, which is quite arguably its most lethal residency.

I can get through most days without feeling massive or like I need to starve myself, but there are always going to be triggers. However, I choose to confront my triggers rather than avoid them. It’s never great for me to listen to others talk about their strict new diet or their rigorous workout routine, but I believe it would be even worse to cover my ears. 

Facing triggers is terrifying. The voice in your head, the voice that is begging you to fall back into the darkness, wants you to give in. To adopt a crazy diet of your own, just to see what it’s like. To go to the gym a second time because that person’s workout sounds way more intense than yours was that morning. But real power is telling that voice to go to hell. Gaining confidence back and truly recovering looks like resisting every urge your body has to destroy, destroy, destroy.

I’m one year into recovery as of today, and to say I haven’t felt this great in years would be a lie. I definitely felt better when I was young, before I was anorexic, when I was just a healthy kid who ate what she wanted and lived her life. So no, this isn’t the best I’ve ever been, but it’s the wisest I’ve ever been. It’s the strongest I’ve ever been. And if I keep working at it, one day I'll look back from an even stronger, wiser and happier standpoint.

I will never lie to anyone—this shit isn’t easy. But wherever you are in recovery, know that it’s doable.

A year ago today, I wanted to die. My biggest fear was gaining weight, but here I’ve done it. I’ve faced it. But I’m nowhere near done mentally healing, and I have to keep pushing forward. I promise you can too.

Monday, February 26, 2018

The Best Trends at Milan Fashion Week

Hey Brainiacs,

It's Monday and we're another week into Fashion Month with only Paris left. While it's sad to think that this season's stream of chicness, elegance, bad-assery and inclusiveness is almost over, we can't let that distract us from giving Milan the proper respect it so rigorously earned.

Without further ado, my top picks for Fall/Winter 2018 as presented to us by the Italians:

1. Femininity

The current sexual and political climate suggests a hesitation (and perhaps even unease) when it comes to femininity. We want to be recognized as people, not women, and dressing in all the frills and florals can distract from our purpose. I disagree with this sentiment. Femininity has always been a crucial part of fashion--the only thing wrong with it is the need to label it "For women only." Celebrate!

Les Copains

Luisa Beccaria

Sara Battaglia

2. Bright orange

This has always been a favorite palette of mine and I'm happy to see it dominating Milan this upcoming season. Every skin tone can pull it off and it brings life to any look - you can't go wrong with bright orange.

Lucio Vanotti

Emilio Pucci

Fausto Puglisi

3. Pinstripe

Can be worn straight from your father's closet or coutured to your body. (Yes, I just made "couture" a verb).

Giorgio Armani


Max Mara

4. Patent Leather

A season favorite of mine. Patent leather appeared on most runways, bringing a campy glamour to already stunning looks. 

Simonetta Ravizza



5. Bejeweled

Like my high school prom dress, only thousands of dollars more.


Dolce & Gabbana

Alberta Ferreti

6. Plaid

Once I get past the private school PTSD (and do my best to channel my inner Cher Horowitz), I can really appreciate a good plaid.

Marco de Vincenzo

Ermanno Scervino


7. Patent leather boots

For when you want to take fall's hottest trend to the next level.

Arthur Arbesser


Antonio Berardi

8. Wildly out of context hats

In my opinion, if you're going to wear a hat it should either be dad or completely over the top. This season, Milan went for the latter.

Moschino (is anyone seriously going to consider wearing a pillbox hat this year?)

Alberta Ferretti (for all of our inevitable inner "Zoros")

Giorgio Armani (sure)

9. Gloves

One times out of 10 for cold hands; nine times out of 10 for drama.

Max Mara

Erika Cavallini

No. 21

These stood out to me. What did you like/dislike?